Rambling Intro – Homesick Diary

I can’t get my thoughts out when I’m physically writing so hopefully typing will make things easier. For the last couple of days I have been feeling very homesick. It’s nothing new, I’ve been struggling a lot with that this year but this time it hit me suddenly and I couldn’t stop crying all night. Any little thing that reminded me of how much I missed home bothered me and made me teary or I had to stop doing whatever it was that I was doing at the time.

It probably didn’t help that I was listening to “love songs” which is something I normally do! I love feeling all lovey dove-y when I’m writing, brainstorming, or planning out my week but it’s almost as if I had a breakup with all my friends and family because I don’t see them or hear from them as much as I want to. IT’S NOT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR’S FAULT, I blame it on time. That’s also not true because I know that I’m not on the top of the friendship priority list and I’m also an asshole so I’ll explain that more later.

To those who don’t know me, I am from California, my husband is from Scotland, and we fell in love and moved to England soon after we got married. I had visa issues in 2015 and after lots of stress and tears, we now are able to live in the same country and don’t have to worry about that issue for now.

We are visiting California for Thanksgiving and it’s nearly 70 days away but by then I wouldn’t have seen my friends and family for 15 months. This is the first time I’ve ever been away for over a year. I’m just going to say that I realize people have it much worse, but this is the first time I’m having to live through this so SHH. I feel like if I had friends near (those in the US and UK) it would make things much easier. I feel like if I was able to go back home every 6 months I’d be able to manage fine but we simply can’t afford it and don’t have the time. What hurts me most is thinking about the holidays. I always stayed home on Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year hanging out with my mom. My siblings were always invited round to their friends so sometimes they’d leave. I personally didn’t feel like it was appropriate (for me) to leave the house unless we were all going to another relative’s house to celebrate (I did have close friends come over as well so it’s not as “sad” as it sounds, haha). So when I think about not going home and not being able to spend time with my family, I think specifically about my parents hanging out and doing nothing LOL. As dumb as that sounds, it’s what I imagine and it makes me sad. My parents usually have plans when we’re all out but the thought of it really upsets me. Going home for Thanksgiving was such a big deal and when I told my mom she was so happy and was so shocked she needed to just sit in her car and not drive. I didn’t know she was out at the time and thankfully she was just sitting in the parking lot. She said she was so excited that her heart was pounding. We’re having a huge feast when visit so that makes me happy!

Aside from being homesick around the holidays, I really miss spending time with my siblings. We always had fun playing together when we were younger and even though we fight a lot (as WE ALL DO) we are pretty close. AT LEAST I THINK SO. IF YOU GUYS EVER READ THIS YOU BETTER FEEL THE SAME. Anyway, even in my early 20s, and them in their teens, we’d have so much fun playing board games or video games to the point where we’re all screaming. I’m super competitive but we know it’s all for fun because even though I end up rage punching the couch because they are purposefully sabotaging me, we laugh about it immediately after.  It’s not like it wasn’t the other way around, my sister and I would team up on my brother to make him lose because even though he was the youngest he was somehow still better than us?! UGH. Even though my cooking has evolved since 2 years ago I miss cooking for them too! I also miss making them watch scary movies so I can laugh at them when they jump.  I MISS EVERYTHING.

Here’s where friendships come in. We’re all adults now, we all have our own lives and I get that. What I don’t understand is why I feel like I’m pushed to the side or an afterthought? Sometimes I feel like I’m putting in everything I can (and yes I’ve brought this up before) and helping to the best of my knowledge but still not be asked how my days was. With some people it’s like “help me!” and when I need a shoulder they’re not there. When I want to have a quality friendship time skype call people are too busy? There’s also times where I say “You can always come to me!” but I never hear from them LOL. Here’s why I feel like I’m an asshole too: I know I haven’t been a good friend to some people lately. I posted on my fb that I have no excuse other than trying to stay productive and distract myself from dealing with a bunch of crap that is out of my control but that is an entirely different story. I feel bad and I don’t know how to explain how I feel about these situations other than I’m so damn lonely and would like to have one group of people remember that I exist but also a jerk who doesn’t want to talk to another group of people *because* I’m going through a tough time. Can I just blame this on distance and the time difference? I’m going to because I feel like it LOL. I know the real answer to these questions but sometimes I just want to rant and say everything.

These are just my rambling thoughts, I don’t know how to process or further explain how I feel. I think writing everything down and posting to my blog will help me figure out crap and hopefully I won’t be as homesick? EHHHH. Anyway, thanks for reading my post especially if you made it this far, jeez!!

❤ Gloria

Crustless Quiche!

I posted a picture of my food yesterday on my more under the radar IG account where I mostly post food and my workouts and someone asked for the recipe! This is a mix of of a couple of recipes but it’s more or less the same prep. Here’s the link for reference. Now the ingredients that I used!

Ingredients:

5 eggs
3 cups of shredded cheese (I KNOW)
6 strips of bacon
1.5 cups of chopped broccoli
1 package of spinach
1 small yellow onion
1 tsp pepper
1/2 tsp low sodium salt
1/4-1/3 cup of 2% milk

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1. I put the bacon in the pan and let them cook until they were nice and crispy then put them aside. I left some of the bacon fat in because I’m a horrible person and just wanted to try it. (A woman at a bbq told me she used it for making gravy and for whatever reason that inspired me to do this? LOL)

2. While the bacon was cooking, I cut up the onion TINY cuz I hate chunks of big onion cuz that’s gross. I put the bacon fat on low heat because I like to take the time to cut up my veggies and still have something cooking while I’m doing it so it’s not just PREP PREP PREP then nothing’s going at the same time cuz it takes FOREVER… to me anyway lol!

3. I chopped the spinach because Ali hates “wet leaves” or things that feels like they’re slimy crawling down his throat. He came into the kitchen and chopped them finer because it wasn’t TINY ENOUGH APPARENTLY LOL. After that, I chopped the broccoli into little tiny pieces as well and tossed them all in the pan to let the spinach wilt down a little and soften the broccoli and cooked until most of the water was evaporated.

4. While all of that was going on, I mixed the cheese (I used a low sodium cheese but use whatever) eggs, salt, pepper, and milk into a bowl. The recipe I linked you to didn’t use bacon, broccoli or milk but I like it so yolo.

5. Once all of that was done, I added the bacon fat friends into the bowl and stirred around until everything was coated with the eggs to make sure nothing chunky was sticking out… mostly cuz I wanted it to look cute. Then I poured it into a dish.

6. The recipe said it should be done in 30 minutes but my dish was pretty small and a bit deeper than a normal pie pan so it took about 45 minutes for it to be golden on the top and not runny on the inside.

When it was all done this is what my nummy slice looked like:
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YOHHHZZZ!! If you decide to try this GO FOR IT!!! This was my first time trying to make something like this and I’m happy to say it was pretty yummy! I’m going to find ways to make it taste better and not use as much cheese next time cuz for the most it’s pretty healthy… minus the bacon fat and 8390248023lbs of cheese lol. Enjoy!!

OOPS HAVEN’T POSTED IN *ALMOST A MONTH! – Update!

I’ve taken the time to post on FB about what my plan is for the new year in terms of my channel. This is what I plan to do and I hope to stick to it! I *will* stick to it… for as long as I can.. I hope. 😛 Here’s what I posted:

Me Monday – Things I love which includes all of my beauty related things or whatever I feel like talking about!

OOTD
Get Ready With Me
Monthly Favorites
Beauty Type Tags
Ask Gloria

WILDCARD WEDNESDAY! – I may post something comedy OR beauty related.. or maybe there’ll be NOTHING at all! LOL! This day depends on time and I’ve been watching too much It’s Always sunny ;P

Comedy
Challenges
Not So Beauty Tags
MAYBE Beauty Tags – WHO KNOWS! IT’S WILDCARD DAY!

Funny Friday – I’m sure the title speaks for itself but FUNNY VIDEOS EVERY FRIDAY! A lot of you are missing my new posts and I’ve been asked MULTIPLE times about WHY I don’t post funny videos anymore.. I do.. you just don’t see them for some reason!

Tita Auntie
Baby Smiley
Lyrical Lacey
Coco Chandelier ;]
Parody Makeup Tutorials

All of my videos have a designated day so be sure to check back each week! Please let me know what type of videos you’d like to see! you all!

I might start doing something similar on here. I like being able to go more in depth about what I’m talking about. I’ve mentioned this before and I like that people like to actually read these things LOL! Anyway, excited for the new year.